I had 17 ECT’s forced in January-February of 1998. It was nearly 20
I never could understand how I could love my daughter again. She is really messed up bad.
My journey started in 1989 but I am tired of writing on it. Suffering could have been prevented. I was not a depressed woman, not ever.
It was because I didn’t marry one man in 1989 that led up to my shocks by 1998.
Can anyone give me clues as to how to maintain relationships anymore?
I read what a Jane wrote – the only word that comes close is hell.
Judy had unnecessary forced ECT in 1998. She spent the last 20 years unable to emotionally connect with others–her own daughter suffering greatly as a result. This is a reminder that there is never just one casualty of ECT; family and friends pay an equally heavy price.
Many ECT survivors report a feeling emotionally numb and disconnected, myself included. Some answers to this may come from understanding the systems involved in love and connection (hint: it’s not just your heart). There is evidence that ECT is an electric lobotomy, disconnecting the frontal lobes from the rest of the brain and doing god knows what else to this intricate system we call the brain.
Along with emotional disconnect, Judy continues to struggle with cognitive problems, decades after ECT.